The one person in the world who is supposed to love you unconditionally and do anything for you is the one person who let me down more than anyone else in the world. She broke my trust, she let me down and she proved to me exactly who I do not want to be. My mother.
9 years of counselling.
9 years of bullying.
9 years of not understanding and blaming myself.
9 years is how long it took me to realise that actually, it really wasn’t my fault. I never made the choices I was just influenced by them. Ultimately, I’m not the person who is going to miss out, it will be her. I know now that if I have children I will never ever do to them what my mother done to me.
9 years on I’m now studying at university and trying to get myself early entry onto a counselling degree.
Everything happens for a reason. What my mother done to me has made me who I am today. I am the kind of person who can see over the mountain- even when it’s the tallest mountain in the world. All of the things that happened to me may have messed me up when I was younger but now I can see the horizon. Sometimes it takes something awful to open your eyes to the better things in life; to make you a better person and to make you understand and appreciate the world better.
Don’t wait for the storm to end, learn to dance in the rain. There is always something good that can come out of a bad situation, no matter how dark it is or how long it takes to find it.
The Shovels, The Shits and The Silver Linings 